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1 - Name: Fox
2 - Age: 21
3 - GW: 96 lbs
4 - Time without sleep (record): 2 days
5 - Scars: missing them
This is really just a place for me to hang around since I can't do much right now. Stuck at home until early next year.
Anyway. Just call me Fox. I'm not sure how much I'll be on here before next year; it kind of depends on how frustrated I get with things.
I consider myself a 'starvation artist', which is a term I've been using for a couple of years now. It really refers to the lack of excess that we strive for. Starvation artists have/use enough to live but not more than we really need to outside of our specific interests/fields of work or study. We often sleep and eat very little as these are considered time-wasters or just not that important, meaning that we're typically underweight or aiming for underweight. Most of us self-injure and have no desire to stop. It's really no different than a cigarette to a smoker, after all.
What we do is a conscious choice and we do understand the risks presented. The main differences I see is that we aren't inherently depressed or suicidal and that we feel any risks are worth it for the art of the thing. A great many of us are musicians, visual artists, and/or writers.
So that's basically what I'm hoping to really get back to doing here soon. Things will be pretty different when I'm away at school, I think. I can wear the bars on my wrist without having the parental fallout to deal with. Honestly, I didn't want to stop in the first place, I was just trying to get my mother to worry about me so she'd maybe stop getting married and divorced every other month. Oh, well. Nothing to be done now.
That's really all this post is: an introduction to the apparent madness. Check back whenever you want/if you want. I'm getting a little bit of a headache and it's getting a little late here so I should probably get back to homework pretty soon.
Here's a video of static for 12 hours. I think it's kind of fitting and the white noise helps me focus sometimes.
2 - Age: 21
3 - GW: 96 lbs
4 - Time without sleep (record): 2 days
5 - Scars: missing them
This is really just a place for me to hang around since I can't do much right now. Stuck at home until early next year.
Anyway. Just call me Fox. I'm not sure how much I'll be on here before next year; it kind of depends on how frustrated I get with things.
I consider myself a 'starvation artist', which is a term I've been using for a couple of years now. It really refers to the lack of excess that we strive for. Starvation artists have/use enough to live but not more than we really need to outside of our specific interests/fields of work or study. We often sleep and eat very little as these are considered time-wasters or just not that important, meaning that we're typically underweight or aiming for underweight. Most of us self-injure and have no desire to stop. It's really no different than a cigarette to a smoker, after all.
What we do is a conscious choice and we do understand the risks presented. The main differences I see is that we aren't inherently depressed or suicidal and that we feel any risks are worth it for the art of the thing. A great many of us are musicians, visual artists, and/or writers.
So that's basically what I'm hoping to really get back to doing here soon. Things will be pretty different when I'm away at school, I think. I can wear the bars on my wrist without having the parental fallout to deal with. Honestly, I didn't want to stop in the first place, I was just trying to get my mother to worry about me so she'd maybe stop getting married and divorced every other month. Oh, well. Nothing to be done now.
That's really all this post is: an introduction to the apparent madness. Check back whenever you want/if you want. I'm getting a little bit of a headache and it's getting a little late here so I should probably get back to homework pretty soon.
Here's a video of static for 12 hours. I think it's kind of fitting and the white noise helps me focus sometimes.
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